At my very first appointment, with Pam, the first issue that came up was

Fear of Loss

2 incidents in my young childhood had given me this strong fear of losing a child. A close family friend had 2 of her children die.  One was hit by a car while riding on her bike.  The other died after a long illness.  These happened when I was 3 and 5 years old and I held those emotions deep in my body and wasn’t really aware of it.

This experience as a young child has cast a long shadow on my mothering.

To give you an example:  T1 is 13 and this was the first summer I let him ride his bike around our neighborhood by himself.  He is 13.  I had no conscious idea of why I was so scared to let him do that.  But a good cry on the massage table after remembering my neighbors child being hit by a car and dying when I was little, helped me to understand why I was so nervous about him riding his bike.

Once I realized it and cleared emotions from that experience, Devon was free on his bike this summer, having a blast and I was never nervous at all.

Our subconscious mind is SO POWERFUL!!!!

My Birth Trauma Intensified this Fear of Loss

I have always been much more guarded with Devon then the other boys.  In this session I discovered it was because that morning when I noticed he wasn’t moving in the womb, I already thought I had lost him.  I was SO SCARED.  That fear lingered through my mothering of him.  Until I let it go on Pam’s amazing massage table.

It was amazing that once I made that connection and worked that fear of loss out of my body how I felt lighter and wasn’t scared anymore!