This is part of my blog series about what I discovered about how my birth trauma with T1 left many trapped emotions in my body, which had a big effect on how I was mothering.  I was able to release them with awesome massage “therapy”, another great tool is the The Emotion Code

In my second session with Pam I discovered that I felt very disconnected to my family.  One reason why I loved being pregnant and breastfeeding is I was CONNECTED literally and that was so fulfilling.  It helped me feel connected emotionally too.

Sudden and Forced Disconnection from Emergency Cesarean

I discovered that this started with – not surprisingly – the birth if T1.  I felt that he had been ripped from my body and I was so suddenly and unexpectedly disconnected from him.

Then during T2’s birth I felt SO connected to Rob and T2, until I got Demerol and an epidural.   I think one reason I had PPD after T2, was that sudden disconnection again. Breastfeeding helped me stay connected with him, but I was completely disconnected with T1 and DH during that postpartum period.

So with T3’s birth I really wanted to go all natural to have that immensely connecting experience.  I did and it was great.  I stayed connected with T3 for hours after his birth and the transition to separation was smoother.

So in the weeks after that session I really worked on connecting with my family.  I don’t have to be physically connected with them to be emotionally connected!