Ok, it was AMAZING.
Really Trust Birth 2008 was life changing, I remember driving home and pondering all I had learned and thinking, how will I apply this in my life? I was then wondering, should I be a midwife? After a few months of praying, pondering I realized, that isn’t the path I needed to go at that time. I then downloaded MP3’s and listened more and pondered more and it changed the way I doula and teach.
This conference was no different. Though since I have had more experiences as a doula and Childbirth Educator, it was more meaningful, useful I guess. During the drive home I pondered a lot and still have a lot to process. I still feel certain I am not to be a midwife. But I am just as certain I have a gift related to birthing and I must continue to grow that gift and love and serve expecting parents!
I think one thing I certainly learned is some tools to better balance my birth work and my mothering. I spend too much time on the computer and have to much “to do” and often when I am with my boys, I am thinking about birth, blogs and being busy (things I have to get done)
So I need to work on that for sure! I am not clear on how that will happen, but I have more tools and information to help me achieve that!
During one talk someone said, “Birth is a part of each one of us or we wouldn’t be here.” I tried to imagine birth not being a part of my life and I felt horrible inside. I think if I didn’t have it in my life in some way, a part of me would die. So the conference definitely reinforced that I need to be in this “business” though I feel it is more of a calling.