This morning we have our mother assessment. We will go to feed T1 first. He threw up his 3 am feeding, but did OK with his 6am feeding.
- Not bleeding a lot – normal?
- Urinate – still a little hard
- Breastfeeding – how often should I be pumping?
- Support person?
- Transition to breast?
- My milk in ? Not a lot with pumping.
- Rent double? How much? Insurance cover it?
Mother assessment went well. Everyone says my stomach is tight. It just makes me sad it is empty.
Hard day – T1 still has mysterious infection. CRP is up again. They will test his urine and blood to see if it is OK. He will be on antibiotics at least 4 more days.
Went with Rob for 3:00 feeding. I had thought I would get to put him on the breast, but he threw up again so they gavage fed him and then we let his stomach settle, then I held him and he threw up. It broke my heart.
So I only held him for about 5 minutes in the afternoon and 15 minutes in the morning. I am so very sad.
Rob and Christian went back at 9pm and gave him a blessing.
He was blessed with this –
“He will know I am his mom and I love him even though I can’t be there all the time. That he will be able to learn to eat well – breastfeeding will go well too. That his infection will clear up. That he will be able to come home in a few days to be with his family.”
This was very reassuring to me, especially about the breastfeeding. I really wanted that to work.